It was a stunning question for me to think why the man attacked innocent people in the Orlando gay club by a planed mass shooting out. He was a Muslim by birth. He visited the gay club for a few years. He was a married father with a wife and a daughter. By no means that he practiced in the gay lifestyle. Did he practice Islam? did he still believe in his Allah?
What learned from later news was that he was very struggling in his life. He often got drunk in the same club. people did not want to know what happened inside of him in order to avoid what the natural of his murder of innocent people.
For the Love of Jesus Christ, I surely would like to dissect his thoughts here in order to awake many lost ones in this world.
(1) Omar Mateen, the murder in the photo, was not a mental ill person at all. No medical record says that he was a mental disable person. He decided to go to that same club to experience what the gay culture was. He planed to get the guns and scouted out the place. He persuaded his wife to give him a ride to the place on that night and asked her to conceived the plan. By all facts listed, he was a healthy and clear minded person.
(2) what was not revealed was that the motivation of his visit of the club, the reason of his drunk in the club, the fact of that he had no homosexual partner(s), and his inner conflicts of his belief and his lifestyle.
(a) he was a young man and lived in a most free country that enables him to see, to interact, and to experience the most unimaginable lifestyle of gay people, which is completely distorted his traditional education and value in his mind. Yes, he might not believed in Islam well. yes, he might have not practiced Islam well. However, he inherited what his family has.
(b) He felt empty. He felt tempted. He felt confused when he visited Orlando Pulse gay club. if he was curious of gay sex, or tried to experience such lifestyle, he would have had crossed over his moral boundary to adopt such lifestyle. From his planned shooting, it was very rational that he could not adopt himself into such lifestyle, although he soaked himself into it. His very inner belief and value told him that he was not one of them who could do whatever they liked. Was his hatred a result of other gay people's rejection of him? I highly doubted as no one disclosed anything about being unfriendly or his madness of refusal. but it was his own will to choose what he could do in the club. However, the guilty of what he saw every time pushed him to take some action to end the misery inside of him. a question is what was his unceasing misery that led to many others' death and his very own life.
(c) the intense and unceasing conflict within his soul Omar by far was not a weak person at all. He allowed himself to be tormented by what he could not tolerated and what his soul could not rest upon over a few years. The conflict of what he saw in the Pulse club and what the deep buried belief and personal value tormented him unceasingly. He tried to get know why and what those gay people were doing with their life and could not understand. He immersed himself in alcohols until passed out in order not to commit a crime. however, whenever he was at his own home, reviewing his family value and who he was, he knew that those acts in the club was so intolerant in his soul. He found no ways to persuade them away, nor he could forget their lustful actions. then, a dark thought formed in his mind. Did he inquire of his Allah? Did he not get support from his wife? What promoted him to do so was what he saw and experienced in the Pulse gay club contradicted to what he believed and grew up with: the Islamic value of his life. That a person does not practice a religion does not mean he is not par to that religion. this was true to Omar as he pledged himself to Islam State as he could not choose any other religion. He planned., He prepared. He did. he knew he would die with them to end his own suffering.
I donot know whether my dissect of his mind was true. but I believe most of them could be true. even so, it does not justify any part of his murderous deeds. Any one, including evil and wicked one based on our religion deserves to live a full life in this ending age.
what I wanted to point out if my dissect was in a right direction, then, my warning and message go to those who continue to practice homosexual lifestyle:
Repent your sins today to stop torment those who could not be tolerated by your deeds.
As this world promotes freedom of beliefs and choices, also this world protects all people to have equal rights to live. When your deeds brings torments to others, you must refrain them to those who are weak. The Bible teaches, not to offend the weak ones in a public gathering. For example, eating food sacrificed to the idols. This warning does not take away your choice or freedom but to uphold that you have no rights to offend the weak ones by your choice or freedom.
Repent as the Lord lives. Homosexual deeds are sinful conduct. G-d hates these immoral deeds that completely contradicts to what he created for. Sexual sensation is not for lust, but for true love between one male and one female. You can choose to live a homosexual life, but your decision disobey what he created and what he commanded. You will have serve consequence of your wrongful decision.
Repent, my Muslin friends. no matter how you felt the wickedness of this world against you or your religion, you have no rights to take away others' life. You shall not follow Allah even his book grants your rights to kill others. Only the One and Only Son of Almighty G-d can save our souls. If you ever feel tormented by this world, please try to pray to Jesus when your Allah does not answer your prayers. Our G-d is a living G-d and He answers our sincere prayers. Why destroy your valuable life when there is another way to save your soul? Murderer has no portion in heaven as the Bible says.
Repent, the freedom embracing people. G-d loves us yet He hates sins. homosexual conducts are sexual immorality and sinful as recorded in the Holy Bible. We all were born with sins. yet, if we do not repent, none of us will go to the new Heaven nor will be saved. However, if you continue to practice what G-d hates, you shall bear the consequence of your deeds and words. But true Love is war, a war against all sins. Heaven is real, so is hell. Make wise decision when you hear the voice of good news from the Lord our Savior Jesus Christ.
May all of us live well according to his grace and mercy and Love. Amen.
3rdClay, a mere human being in this world, was not chosen, but by Grace, was called and chosen and sent to do His Will in this falling world. We all are 3rd clay that He used to mold us to be. The 1st clay was for Adam, the 2nd clay was and has been for the descendants of Abraham. We gentiles, have been made of the 3rd clay that was not worthy, defiled, corrupted, and filthy.